Friday, September 21, 2012

I'm Sorry

I hate using this website for personal reasons, but this is actually personal and NASCAR-related, so I guess it's okay. 

I feel like a terrible person right now; people keep tweeting me and telling me that I'm not posting enough about NASCAR on here and on Twitter and feel the need to unfollow me because of that.  Granted, I don't care how many followers I have on Twitter, but still, it makes me feel bad to see that people are getting upset that I'm not posting nearly as much on here as I should be.  Honestly, I feel like I'm letting everyone down and that's making me really upset.  I'm not writing this to get pity or anything; please, that's the last thing I want right now, but I wanted to write this to show you all that I haven't fallen into the Black Hole and I am, in fact, still alive…well sort of…

Emotionally, I've been all over the map lately; one day I'm happy and excited for college and for all the exciting things going on this year and the next day I'm ready to move to Australia and change my name.  This past week was actually one of the most stressful weeks of my life - I changed my mind about which college is my top choice; it used to be UNC Charlotte, but now it's High Point University, which I believe it was all along, I just had other things clouding my judgment. 

My bed right now...
I just started my college applications, so between writing millions of essays (of which I managed to work NASCAR into all of them), filling out the applications, figuring out which schools need what paperwork, and everything else, my mind has been in the gutter.  That's not even mentioning what's going on in school….but I won’t even go there.  One could say I'm a tad overwhelmed with everything going on. 

I'm doing my best to keep up with the races and with what's going on in the NASCAR world.  I'll be the first to admit that I catch pieces of the races here and there, but can never catch the entire race because there's always something going on.  However, next weekend I'll be at Dover for the K&N East race, so look for some awesome updates from the track.  It should most definitely be fun since it's my first K&N East race ever! 

If you're still reading this, thank you.  You could've stopped after the first sentence, but you chose to finish reading the article for whatever reason.  If this sounded like I was ranting or whatever, I really wasn't, it's just everything going on right now is making me go slightly insane so it was nice to be able to write everything down and tell you why I'm not writing articles as frequently as I should be.

Again, thank you, and maybe I'll see you at Dover!

- Ashley 


  1. Ashley, You are doing a very good job and I always look forward to reading your work. You can't let what people say get to you. What these people don't understand are the sacrafices you are making to help further your career in life. Keep up the good work and I can't wait to read your Dover coverage

  2. Hang in there Ashley, school comes first. If you take care of school everything else will take care of itself and you'll be able to realize your dreams. Most of us understand that and the ones that don't? Maybe they can go read the Speed website and wait for you to get there in a few years! NIck

  3. Ashley, you just keep the good work up girl. Your doing a awesome job!

  4. Don't worry Ashley, you are doing great! There is more to life than racing and at times we have other priorities but that shouldn't make you feel bad. Just appreciate the time you do have to spend on racing and then do what you need to do. You have a great career ahead of you.